JEDI MIND TRICKS

Jedi Mind Tricks

You tell me this
when clearly I know
it’s that
yet you
get my mind outta whack
makin me retract
think back
perhaps I didn’t know
the facts
distracting my accusations
maybe it was just a hallucination
a figment of my imagination
the after affects of some orange juice?????
Clearly I’m confused
all I know is
I love you
so I ignore the probable
and believe the impossible
yeah that wasn’t you
that must’ve been
your man’s n them
or maybe just a mirage
my delusions
your façade
and you applaud
at your ability to sway me
I know I’m not crazy
he just mesmerizes me
and I forget all sense and sensibility
the truth could probably be
sitting next to me
and I still wouldn’t see
perhaps its the way
he throws that D
and I pretend its bliss
disregard my sixth sense
makeup and then kiss
never realizing
it’s just his Jedi Mind Tricks

written by,
tina divina

You know when you have that gut feeling that something isn’t right, yet you play it down, perhaps disregard it, you might even ask your mate about it, only for them to come up with something so clever you figure you were just tripping….. or were you??

While I wrote this from a females point of view, it could be from either sex…the mind games, why do we play?

Holla at me,

~TD

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Me + Him = ?

It is CraZy
the ways of dating
and falling in love
…………..but not falling
and wanting to call
…………..but not calling
and wanting to touch
…………..but not touching
and wanting to talk
…………..but not speaking…

leaving you feeling
distraught
caught in the middle
of single….
…………..yet his
physically content
but emotionally divided
you try to hide it
play fight it
unsure when you can
give in
becoming a master
of Pretend
when does it become
more than friends?
when is it alright
can I be
myself tonight?

…………..let inhibitions slow burn in candlelight….

and do all the things
I’ve been wanting
without fear of regretting
for saying some sh*t
I’ve been thinking…

…………..(cause really I love you)

we go back and forth
and up and down
and in and out
and all around
the friendship zone
neither of us
wants to be alone
so instead we
talk in monotone
hold no claims
play the name game
she’s just a friend
he’s not my man
never really
knowing the plan
I’m struggling just
to understand
trying to
maintain my ground
playing around
with the thoughts
trying on the words
to see if they fit

…………..(Me + Him) = ?

scribbling it
on notepads
padding my heart
with guards
who am I kidding
I’m falling hard
and gaining speed
I’m really wanting
Just you and Me
…………..You in?

written by,
tina divina

Do you remember when you were young, you would like a boy and he would like you back and it was no secret. He would say to you,  do you go with me? …and just like that, you were in a long term commitment…(long term in junior high was at least til the summer. LOL )

Nowadays you could date someone, and date some more, and date some more….and never really truly know if you are a couple yet. Just enjoying it in limbo, for fear of having “That Conversation”. Sounds crazy, but there is definitely a lack of commitment in today’s society.

I wonder if it is because of the outgrowing ratio of women to men, for fear of committing to this one, because there is still that one….

What do you think?

Holla at me,

~TD

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The Flirt

The Flirt.

It’s all so simple at first
whether subconscious
or overt
manipulative maneuvers
may occur
I should come with
a warning sign
“Be careful or you may
fall in love with Her”
please don’t mistake this
for a chance
to get under my skirt
or you may get hurt
enter the mind
of a FLIRT.

written by,
tina divina

Flirting….quite a natural instinct, we afterall by nature…. are not monogamous creatures, it is only with Faith, Love, and Care, that keeps us here… or there. However, when married or in a relationship, how tolerable is Flirting?

What is allowed or expected
and exactly where is the line drawn?? When is it just too much?

Holla at me,
~TD

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Prelude To An Affair…

I adjust my ring finger
seems the tenure is getting tight
either my finger got bigger
or the size became slight
something isn’t right
I dare not look you in your eyes
fearful you would see
what’s missing in me…..you
inside I’m blue
and avoiding your touch
evading your glance
quickening your hug
answering your questions
with a shrug
its just
I’m no longer in love
and being beckoned by lust
its not you
its us
the anticipation has submerged
the chills are lukewarm
the butterflies don’t
tingle anymore
I don’t look forward
to coming home
because when the lights go out
the reality turns on
I feel your hand creep
beneath the sheets
and I cringe
its not that your not attractive
its that I’m distracted
with him
no one said life was perfect…
or that we’d never part…

or that this would be easy…

or that I would break your heart…

believe me
this is the hardest part
but baby
I’m not in love with you

I mean…
I love you
for all that you do, have done, and once were
but the reasons I fell
have become a blur
do you even know
who I am anymore
a room once filled with laughter
silence now stirs
we are following our shadows
of who we once were
The ones who fell in love
yesterday
but I’m not the woman I was
yesterday
I want to protect you
from the things I need to say
there is no easy way.

Prelude to an affair….

Written by
tina divina

Welcome to my Blog… to a weekly discussion of love and relationships, the intricate passages into your heart, mind and soul. Let me speak the things that your thinking but not saying. Allow me to pick your brain and open your mind to….Possibility….

Its easy to write about all the beautiful parts of love… but love isn’t always that beautiful, sometimes its challenging, and tiring, and in need of nourishment, and why sugar coat it, lets call it what it is… Love is about falling in love, and falling out of love and if your lucky, falling in love again.

Have you ever been in a relationship where the passion has exhausted, I mean for all intensive purposes, you still love that person, but you’re just no longer “in love”. You find yourself in curious predicaments, your eyes start to wander, and perhaps you would never be unfaithful, but for a split second, you thought about it.

Holla at me,

~TD

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